It has been quite some time since I've written one of these bad boys, so there's definitely much to be updated on. I promise almost all of it is positive!
So, as most of you know, I am finishing up my last year at JMU and I think that's one of the most rewarding and scariest things I've come to know. I am beyond excited to get out of here and start the next chapter of my life, but I am not quite ready to leave the comfort of the place I have called home for the past three and a half years. But, it's time to move on and find a new home... or to return to an old one.
Upon starting my senior year I figured I'd graduate and find a job... hopefully getting one before I graduate. A few things have changed since then and I have been persuaded and encouraged to apply to grad school. It wasn't something that I ever thought of doing, because I figured I'd work for a company and they would help pay for any further schooling. Now, however, I have so many people supporting my decision and it makes me that much more excited to apply and hopefully get accepted to my top choices. Please keep your fingers crossed!
Other than that, I have been enjoying my classes and it is scary how fast the semester has gone by. We have three full weeks left before finals. I keep wondering where the hell the time went, but it's easy to figure that out. This year, I have surrounded myself with the people I want to be in my life and the ones that I know want me in theirs. I know that when I am having a bad, which has not been a lot as of late, which friends to reach out to that will only provide me with encouraging and comforting words. I have come to realize that it's those people you need most in your life. Not just because you need someone to be there when shit hits the fan, but because those people want to see you grow and succeed and don't want to see you down in the dumps. If you're lucky enough, you've found those people in your life like I have. You all know who you are :)
In addition to being able to find more than perfect people, I have been able to really turn my negatives into positives. My last post focused on this a little bit, and I told you all I was still working on it. It'd be an overstatement to say I've mastered it, but I'm getting close ;)
It's more than easy for me to walk around with a stupid smile on my face for absolutely no other reason than being happy with where I am in life. I often find myself thinking of how great things are going, and when things start to go sour, I have found that I am able to flip it into a positive. That's talent, but I won't brag.
Speaking of positivity, I am speechless by the amount of good and the power of love I have seen recently. A friend from high school who is the captain of the Rugby team down at ODU was recently assaulted and faced serious injuries. He is on his way to recovery, but I am amazed by the amount of people who have come together to support him. He is a sweetheart and as long as I have known him, he's always had a smile on his face. Truly no person deserves to be put through any kind of pain, but he should know that he is loved and encouraged by so many that it is truly heartwarming. Stay strong, Mike <3
And finally, If there is one thing I am working on, it's being more productive with my days and trying really hard to let go of friendships that no longer serve me. I often find myself lazying around when I should be at the gym, because god knows what this year has done to my body. But we won't go there. In my last post, I got rid of toxic people, but it's time to make the final change. I think writing it out helps the process, too. I have lots of so-called "friends" that talk to me when it's convenient for them, and don't get me wrong, I do enjoy the conversations and socialization, but it isn't worth it. Because I am someone who will always care about people, especially friends, it's hard for me to write them off. Please, don't think I am a negative person and only want friends who want to give me attention. That is the farthest thing away from the truth. It's not hard to ask for a steady friendship that has a purpose and one of them just being there when one person gets dumped by other friends, girls, boys, whatever. It's not fair to anyone in that relationship. So that's that.
And on my final, final note (I swear), I turned 21 in October, and let me tell you, I was not prepared for it at all. It's safe to say I have taken advantage of it to the fullest potential, but that's ok because you're only ever this young once. Have fun and stay safe pretty people, you can guarantee I will!
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